hello again. omfg, cant believe all this is happening. i'll start off with my friends, as they're my top priority ay. sorry if i use ur names, cuz im straightforward.
Friends; as days go by, idk if my friendship is drifting apart again. hais. tinie, the most cheerful of all, mcm nk drift apart. i know she'll never mean it laah, tapi, mcm obvious sak dier nk menjauhkan diri dier. recess, she suddenly gone like that, like kite nie nothing. then if we go up the stairs, will nampak her with sheikha together. heartwrenching or what?! mcm, dulu kau tk suke if dahlia/nina jauhkan diri from kite tiga(me, u & wany). but now, ure always gone mcm gitu jek. igt kite tk saket hati ke? haiyoyo. then dapat tau pulak, she always pick up calls/reply messages only from sheikha jek. idk whether thats true or not uhh kan. its not that i want to bastard uhh, say out ur name or what. i just want u to know what im feeling right now, tinie. aorry uh ehk if u reading this. just dont create a fight back or what luhh. bukan nk halang kau uhh, kau nk kawan dgn sape. but, kite pon ade perasaan okayy. ~
DSH; k, i cried bout u just now b! hmm, i know i shouldnt have called u that anymore, now. haish. i know, i've asked diana to tell u some stuffs, and she has told me what u've got to say. and gyeah, i cried like mad in the library. not cuz of sympathy or whatever shit. this is some of the stuffs i told hannah.its not easy seh, to let go of him just like that. i just wanted him to let me love him. i want him to move on, so that i can make him happy. i cant bear to see anymore, how 'she' have hurt him last time, and even now. i want a guy that can make me forget my past, and thats gonna be DSH. i know, it'll never come true. but it hurts, when he asked me to let go of everything. that shows how he felt for me kan? i've lose hope in love, seriously. i just wanted him to love me, and nothing else. why wouldnt he move on? and after all that, it came to my senses that i can never be as precious as 'her'. i think, he's better off with someone else? but just note one thing, if i really didnt have loved u, i wouldnt cry. i wanted u, do u know that baby? more than anything. i cant bear to see the pain everything that've caused u to be like this. i feel like im the third party? idk why. if i hadnt come into ur life the very first place, i think u've accepted 'her' back. yeaa? but, the most painful thing is that, why would you make me let go of everything?? where's all ur promises? look, im not here to make u feel guilty ke ape uhh. but, hey, nevermind. whatever it is, i'll prove to u that im ready, and i never wanna see u hurt again. i want you to know that im really sincere to make u happy tao b. haish. hope one day, i'd have the chance. "i hope this feeling will last forever, hope yours too."
Exboyfriend; he's really making me go crazy! idk whats wrong with him ey. alehaleh tudoh i got someone else laah, i wetn home with someone else laah. padahal diana & hannah sent me to mrt station sak. pathetic kann? i know, just say it. haha. seriously, kite dh takd the chemistry that we used to have. :(((((( cb, wish i've made up my mind right from the very first. ohwell, nevermind. lol. everything's gonna be over soon, i hope. just one step, at a time. ey? :D
School; excellent. tomorrow getting results. wow or what? haha. cb knn. -.- friday sports&arts. lame! terpakse dtg sak, wanna take back my hp punye psal! its been one month since i ever touched my one&only C902. haha! stepping siots farahhhh. :D and gyeah, ade maths remedial this hols. %^$#*#!@&%
much more to say? till next time laah ey. i hope certain ppl read this. "and and ! i'd still love u okayy DSH? (:"
Wednesday, May 27, 2009, 6:51 PM