me, at vivo. :D heyhelloooo netizens. back again for some stories. hahaa. boredd now at home, listening to songs, chatting with this derrick, tagged & nothing muchh. waaaah, derrick is singing "lonely" now. haha. niceeeee. well, simply, he just cheer up my days sometimes. u knw b, i miss the old days seh. hmmm. many things just happened during the long period of time where i didnt update my blog. not that i lazy laah, but i just dont feel like story-telling to u guys u see. now, im fighting with someone. real bad. i mean, whats wrong with having a tagged? cb sak. then wanna accuse me of contacting other guys etc. now, he wants to run away from me. he says that his trust for me fade away already. what can i do? he always put ALL THE BLAME ON ME. sape tk binget kan? haiyooo. i swear, i've cried like effing shit infront of him before, somtimes, he just look at me then look away. i feel like, his love for me fade awayyyy, very far. omg, im crying typing these words. what wrong have i done to deserve this? why does the person we love most, ended up being the person who hurts us most?? i gave up on him. should i really let him go or should i not? does he deserve me? is he too good for me or what? hais, isit my fault to love someone like him? i cant take it anymore sak. i feel like, everything around me is just an illusion. hmm, idk where can i find the truth. everytime i found the words to say, what i thought would make things okay, i kept it all inside, slowly drowning in my pride. everything i do now, makes no difference. hais. easy to put it, he's not like last time anymore. i wanna let go totally, but siaaaaaaalah, its been 7 months siol! isit better to suffer now, or later? idk. i wanna move onnnn. please laah. he's been treating me unfairly, causing all the fights, but the blame will be on me. wth kann? i feel like im sooooo stupidd at times of making decisions. hmm. we'll see how. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ school days are effing bored, cuz MYE is finished!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i ponteng school siaaa last week . wed & fri . haha? results mcm makk-ki-pu sehh. (!) especially maths & physics. weeeeeee~ *cheh, step happy ehk. lolxz! k laaaah, idk what to say anymore. b cannot wait already. haha! *huggs&kisses*
Saturday, May 23, 2009, 3:05 PM