Okaye . Since some people wanna know about what really happened to me , i'll tell kayyh . It all started yesterday , when i was on my way back from the applying internet thingy . Mamat suddenly texted me . Here's how it goes .
It all started when mamat got to know that i created tagged back . I was shocked uh . And i know one day he'll get to know . Cus these few days , he kept on going to the computer shop or something . Then from there , started the commotion . He sent like , text messages uh , saying he dont trust me anymore , he's tired of being lied at and being 'diperbodoh-bodohkan'. I had no choice . But , he was not as angry as before . He kinda accepts it . Then he kept on saying lahhs , he wanna leave me all . Hmm .. Then at night , we talked on the phone . Gawssh , saket hati sak bbl . Like , all he does is answer bit by bit . Haizzzyaya . I tried to convince him as much as i could , that i really love him very very very very much , and i cant leave him just like that right . He fronted and just acted he was happy to have me leaving his life . Kay , aku sabar ehkk . And , he din even wish me g'night sey . Imagine uh , how hurtful . When i called him "yah ..?" , he will go "what ?!" Cb ! I talk nicely , he like this . Urghhh - After that , i started crying and crying . Sumpah ehkk peeps , i cried till 2.30 at night , non-stop ! I was sooooooo sooooooo sad sey . Cant go on uh siol . Memories , laugh , cry , craziness , everything ! I was seeing our future in him . But , idk if what had happened was my fault , or his ego . What do u guys think ??
Then at school tadi , met him pagi . Walaao , he was like walking with the chinese girl infront siak . Walk so fast , wanna meet me , but show attitude . F right ? Haizz . Tu takpr uh , he gave back my msn p.w alreadyy . At school , he suddenly texted ,
"eyy.i think,nw is time fr me to go let you go ok?you have your life,i have my life.so,we just become normal friends uh.i dont want more than that uh.hmm.im sorry.goodbye!"
You all imagine uh !!!! I immediately broke down and cried real bad . Lucky maths lesson ending . Then Lixian saw . She consoled me , din' work . Then Fyda , Diana , Pari & Hannah came along . Saw me cry , rabak ke whattt ! Then physics , heck care then go toilet uh . All 6 of us , go one cubical . I cry and cry and cry .. For the whole of two periodss !! That one hour , cried non-stop sey . Idk why i suddenly broke down like that . Its like , not the first time , hmm . Well , why cant he just see my love uhh ?? Even Cheryl said , "because of one tagged , you both can lke this uh ??" . Then she was like , guys sucks lor ! Haha . Okaye , then stop crying already , go back class . After that , okaye liaoo .
Serious sak , i love him very much sey . Only his ego , that forced him to always treat me like trash , call me names , accusing me , scolding me , not trusting me and more ! Tell me , who has been the most tolerant with his prangai ?? Me !! I think if other girls get him , die siaa . I cant let go of him just yet is cus , dh 10++ months sey . Then want throw just like that uh ?? What the hell sey over what happened . It was all because of him not trusting me , and we always end up like this . Why cant men give women a chance ?? Why must they put their ego first rather than us ????????? Then after everything , put all the blame on us . After all these months , ive been accepting everything that he did to me . Ive taken much blame . Ive cried , ive suffered . Hell yeah , does he even care at times . Listen guys , to those who've known about my stories with him , ya'll know why im still being patient here . Hmm .
He left just like that , leaving me alone . Ive never thought this day would happen . Its so complicated to think and wonder about me and him . After all the love and sacrifices that we've made , aku tk sanngup siaa , cus aku sangat cinta dier . Enough lahh , of all my tears all this while . Since the very beginning , till here , JUST LIKE THAT ?? But to forget him , will take a whole lot more than just courage . I feel like crying siiaa , lucky mum infront . HAIZZZZZZZZZZZ . I just wonder , why he cant trust me and allow me to make him believe me .........
Wednesday, September 2, 2009, 7:49 PM