"Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew."
Hi. I rot at home again today! Hahaha. And you know what. While I was sleeping just now, suddenly my nenek went "Assalamualaikummmm!" at 8 in the morning!! Wtf sey serious lahh. My mum told already the night before, she wanted to come in the morning. But its like 8! I thought it would be like, 10+ whatever not. So shocked sey. Then I slept at my mum's room then. Kecoh lahh she, always come w/o telling ok! Irritating betol. Then the whole time she's at my house, mcm radio non stop lahh talking =.=" Then she went out at 9+. Idk what she want haha. Then come back again at about 12+. Then I think I woke up at 11+. I sleep again at 3+ after watching tv. Haha, I was like so sleepy idk why. My brother and mum also sleep :D Then 6 woke up. Baru mandi! Whoaaa I so suck. Hahaha. Now, Im currently listening to song. I am bored, cuz Kiki's not online as she got kude kepang. Aiyooo. Nvm lahh kan. Biar aku shiok sendiri :P Ohyaaaa, I've brought back my tagboard, so pls behave k. And remember, if you wanna spam, I'll delete it. So, dont waste time :)
So, today's not a good day for me actually. All cuz of my situation with Khairul. Idk why whenever we tried to talk with each other, we'll argue about something. Im sad k, serious. Idk why our state now is like so rocky, and he just wont allow me to show him that I do love him dearly. Then he'll keep on asking me to prove. Whats there to prove when I always say that I love him all? Do I have to go down to my knees and beg ya? He always say he loves me, but. Urgh~ Ok, my mood's going off now. Aiyo, I know, its hard for him to forget about that one particular post I've posted before. Hmmm. Million times I've said sorry, but to no avail ;( Aku tatau k nak buat aper lagi. Im so sad, to fall out of love over and over again. It seems pathetic, to me. It took me alot of courage to get back up and to fall in love again after being with Mamat, honestly I tell you guys. But, I keep on failing. He may have moved on and wants to be with that girl so badly, but Im scared Im still living in the past. But I know, I definitely have to move on cuz I wouldnt want to be called a 'despo' you see. So I've decided to let him have his own life and forget about the love we have built for almost a year. And now, do I have to do the same with Khairul? I've fallen for Khairul for quite a long time last time, you see. So, its kinda wasted if I just end it just like that. Idk what he really wants, actually. But I always tell myself to hang on. Cuz if I can hang on for months with Mamat last time, for sure I can this time. I really really want Khairul to be different from other guys. Hmmm. Ok thats all for today. I know you'll read this. Byeeeeee~
PS: Khairul, if you're going to make me cry, at least be there to wipe away the tears.
Saturday, January 23, 2010, 8:13 PM