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recent posts. Hates, Aku boleh hidop sendiri jahanam :P Nothing can stop us now, Let me love you ~ Torn apart, by you. Jesus Christ. HAHA :O If you can do it, I can too :) Headaches, fluuuu. This stupid day; Sneeeeeze ~

Wow, oh, wow!
Omg omg sorry fer not updating like, sooo long (!) Hahaha. Okay, now I'm back. Guess what. Last Saturday was my 16th birthdayyy :) Alamakkk ai, baru 16? Binget siolxz :/ Anywayy, thanks to all the people who wished me,
Family <3
Fifth Lane <3
Ruzaini :D P.S; Thanks fer the movie aye ~
Diana :)
Hannah :)
Parimala :)
Afiq :)
Amelisa :)
Ana :)
Couz Lina :)
Eksan Yao Yao :)
Kiki :)
Rara :)
Spark :)
Yasseen :)

There's also lots at FB, but I seemed to can't check it out :( Anyway, thanks thanks thanks loves! Okay, my exams are sooo nearly over, left art tomorrow. YAYYYY ^^ Wednesday gonna watch The Last Song. YAYYYYYYYY again :D I sound so crazy right now but who cares ~ Ohya, mother's day, I bought my mama a necklace, like so nice :D I just came back from Batam yesterday, so tiring. Uncle got married there. Had sooo much fun. I went clubbing o.O And pathetically, I forgot that I have science exam today. How gila I was! Lucky lucky Wany called me. Wth :/ I really really hate taking the ferry lah. It makes me superbly dizzy, and feel like vomiting. The first time I went batam in 2007, otw home. Reached Vivo then vomit sey. Aiyoyo ~ So this morning, running nose like shit, eyes like panda, haed still like spinning. Lucky the paper was not hard.
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Hmm, I checked out his blog. I feel sad. Very very sad. Guilty. Angry at myself. But at the same time, uhhhh. Okay, I'm so at the lost of words now. I'm proud of myself actually, fer being so brave and strong, being with this guy. No matter how he treated me, may it be words or behavior, I still stood tall. I never gave up on him, not even once. Though at times I may cry for hours and hours fer him, heartbroken by his words and lies, just 4 words. I never gave up. If we were still strong together like that very first night we met, we would have been two years this years. Its a waste. Everybody knows how much we loved each other, even my family loved you. I'm happy for myself too, that's because I managed to be the one and only girl in your life that truly believe in you, make you believe in me, too. Make you feel comfortable with me (like you said) and even be the only girl you loved. No other girls could love you the way I do. They may say they can, but not as strong as the one I've poured on you. You may say you cried on the day we went out, but how about my tears throughout the months and months of heart-wrenching problems with you? All your lies, especially. The hurt that I've put through while being with you, the patience I upheld as someone who really loves you, the sadness when I think about all your promises, how I really pray hard every single night fer you to really change and open up your heart to take me back as your girlfriend, the torture I bear when you call me names, accuse me of things I didn't do and swear all the words that I don't at all wanna hear, the pain when I see you with other girls and most of all, seeing the love that we've built crashed just like that? I feel so sad seeing those people who could really last long with their loved ones, seeing hoe much the guy loves her. And so i wonder, why can't this guy whom I loved so effing much, treat me same just like how the other guys treat their girlfriend? I'm not saying that I'm comparing you with any other guys, NO okay. It's just that, why can't you handle your ego and just be who you are when you first met me? When you went away last time, I really felt half of my heart is gone. My love fer you is not like those 'monkey-love' shits aye. It's really true. You betrayed my trust like, tons of time. People may say, "then why the hell you still clinging on to him?!" But why am I still here beside you, loving you? You answer that okay. You've said last time, "when the time comes, I'll come back to you." How long am I supposed to wait? And surprisingly, you could even hurt me when we're not together. Why? EGO. See what your ego has put me through? I've given everything you've wanted, but why can't you just give me a simple thing and that is to throw your fcuking ego away?! It may be hard, but you just simply don't appreciate the things I do, to make you change fer the better. Now, I'm not saying you're bad. Your sacrifices fer me are like none others,. And that's what I love most about you. I know, now you are trying to love me even much more. Thank you. I'm happy fer you. I promise, we'll work it out. Xoxo ~